Life's an ugly place not to have a bestfriend.

I could complain on how much I hate my body and pick out every little detail on what’s wrong on my body.. I’m sure that’s the least of your interests. Living with an eating disorder sucks. It’s painful in the sense that I live to be hungry and I can’t see myself the way others do. I’m one of the hugest hypocrites in the whole entire world. I believe that a body is sacred and should be taken care to the utmost extent. I try to be healthy, but it’s a different kind of healthy I guess. What sucks the most is not being able to understand why you feel the way about your body and you feel like no one else is a fucked up as you are… I don’t know, maybe I’m like this for a reason, some plan that God has in store for me. Ya gotta believe in something right?